Bothers.

I'm starting to realize that I could be looked at and thought of as a terrible person. I mean, I don't ever really do anything that would compromise me as a person. I take pride in who I am and the things that I do, or in most cases, don't do. I'm still full of myself, as always, but the more I'm content with myself and give less of a shit about what other people have to say the more I let loose and sometimes let a little too much go. I mean, I'm into self improvement like no other and by the choices I have made recently I have learned a lot from. Which, I'm happy with. I like that I don't always live life safe guarding myself, I like having crazy stories to look back on. I like learning things, in different and exciting ways. Even if other people may not think much of my decison making skills. Like the other night, getting drunk with Andrew lead to things that I figured would happen. To me it's not a big deal, but if word gets out I may look a bit dirty for doing things with Andrew when I use to kick it with his younger brother Alex that is my age. I mean I HAD a thing with Alex, but by no means were we a THING. So really, Alex couldn't be the furtherest thing from my mind so making decisions so do things with other guys has nothing to do with him in any shape or form. But the thing is Andrew is his BROTHER,...maybe I should have taken that in to consideration? I mean, we haven't talked to each other in months so it's no doubt he feels the sameway about me as I do about him, AKA completely over it. But the fact is at the end of the day they are brothers. I know me and Andrew don't have things for each other, at most before we may have flirted, and I really couldn't tell anyone if I thought this could happen again between us. I don't think Andrew is the type of guy that will let this change things or make it awkward between us. I think he is cool enough to know it is what it is, if it happens again so what? He's just fun to be around, he truly is the guy verison of me. That's why I feel like we are on the same page on this, that it's no big deal. But for some reason, I wonder if it's crossing a line to be able to say that I know what both of them look like with no pants on. I saw their easter family pictures the other day (which were taken on the day I started talking to Alex) and there were picture of both the boys together, it felt weird, or at least felt like it SHOULD be weird that I have done things with both of them, some of the SAMETHINGS. Oh well, I guess Becca Martin (Andrew's ex-girlfirend) is right to assume I have a thing for Charlson's.